Maybe they spoke cruelly to you or caused any level of physical or emotional pain. Perhaps you were on the receiving end of abuse of any and every kind. Maybe the pain comes from one or many omissions of affection, love, security, acknowledgement, kindness, or maybe their failure to forgive you.
Making it to the point you have in your life experiences of all kinds have you had, and some of them stick with us for a lifetime both the “good” and the “bad”. Other than perhaps while drinking, drugging, sexing, shopping, eating, working, etc. the memories remain and sometimes so do the feelings.
We are allowed to forgive those who have wronged us no matter the level of their interaction with us. The action of forgiveness in no way excuses the behaviours of the person/s but rather frees you from being tethered to them in an unhealthy fashion mentally and emotionally.
If you are holding onto a resentment or many of them against people or institutions consider how freeing it will finally be to release them with love or at least no more hate, anger, or resentment. Have as many resentments as you wish, but they will never serve you.
Anytime you have forgiven, and that same resentment pops back into your mind, this is normal, give them to God or the universe in words or thoughts and remind yourself that you have already released them for good. You are welcome to remain victimized, and that is your right. However, it will never serve you as well as being empowered and moving forward untethered to the pains of old.
May love be in abundance in your life, may you forgive yourself as well in allowing yourself to move forward from this day. Sometimes charity starts at home and who are we not to forgive ourselves. Enjoy your weekend and Be Well!